we’ve had 65-80 degree weather where i’m from for the past week or so. i’ve gone to sleep hungry every night. i mean, i’ve gained 12-14 since last summer. which i feel pretty gross about, but cory seems to make me feel ok about that. we wont make it through the summer though. he’s already been noticing my grumbling tummy every night before bed. we got together last summer and he said he hated how thin i was. he’s into “thicker” girls. i’ve been wearing shorts (that i probably shouldnt even wear because my thighs look like fucking canada) and when we’re driving or sitting by each other he likes to grab my stupid thighs. it’s what he’s into, thighs/ass/hips. but i seriously just want to vomit when he grabs my thighs. it’s gross. i literally cringe every time. ughhh. whatever. i naturally lose weight when it gets warmer out… i’m busier and 287689x more aware of how my body looks with less clothes. i love cory, but i have to love myself whether i’m wearing jeans or shorts, a sweater or a tank top. i need to get back in therapy.

that means shorts

tank tops

swimming

sun tans

tan lines

blonde hair

yellow fingernails

bonfires

flips flops

SO MANY THINGS I’M SO EXCITED.

also! every summer, i naturally lose weight :) so i’ll be thinner too!

chocolateandtigerlilies:

BUT IT WAS SO GOOD AND TASTY. I REGRET NOTHING. FUCK THE WORLD MY PERIOD IS COMING CHOCOLATE IS NECESSARY TO MY SURVIVAL. I WILL TAKE HOSTAGES IF I DON’T GET MY DOSE OF CHOCOLATE. I WILL RAPE A BANK AND ROB AN OLD LADY. I MEAN. RAPE AN OLD LADY AND ROB A BACK. RUB A BACK. ROB A BANK. I WILL RAPE THE OLD LADY WHILE GIVING HER A BACK RUB AND THEN ROB A BANK.

CHOCOLATE IS THE DEVIL. BUT IT IS SO GOOD. i completely relate 1000000% to this post. chocolate live long.

(Source: mischieviousfaery)